HH & Her Beans

OLO MA BEANS!! Guess why yo girl is hyped... She just finished all of her college applications and so she has a few experiences to share with all of you youngsters out there. I am pretty proud of how I did not procrastinate and happy with the application process, so let's get started...

I have two college counselors looking out for me right now and I gotta say... They give some pretty solid advice. Since y'all are family, let me tell you what I have learned...

1. Choose your colleges: Do not choose the colleges for the prestige, choose it for your major. When picking your dream school(s) make sure you like the students and environment there.
2. Create a college list: This is basically a list of colleges you want to attend. Make sure that it matches up to the major you select.
3. Create a spreadsheet: On the spreadsheet there should be the tuition of the college, deadlines, what type of application software they use (UC or Common App), the link to the application requirements. 
4. List of awards/honors and any volunteer services you have done in the past: Make sure you only put down the awards you've earned since high school. DO NOT LIE ON THIS PART!! I know it's tempting but if colleges find out, then you are burnt toast. 
5. Supplements: If your college uses Common Apps then they probably have essay questions that are specific to their college. Don't forget these!!
6. Now you are set to go on your essays!!

OLO ma beans!! Well I have just finished Junior year today. I have ended this year with a 3.83 GPA!!! SOMEONE HOLLA AT ME!!! I know it's not the best GPA (aka 4.00) but if you know the situation that I'm stuck in (aheemmm the hardest math teacher in the school) then you would congratulate me... But since y'all are all my fans I need you to congratulate me... #YouNeedToSupportMeBecauseYouLoveMe

Since it is the last day of school, I want to thank a few people... First, I have someone special I need to thank which is this senior in my APES class. He came to find me three times to get his yearbook signed but because I was so brain dead I couldn't write anything meaningful. I mean my brain is still dead, but I can at least say what I want to say now. I'm not sure if you are going to read this but hey there... Thank you for letting me bother you at 3 am in the morning, then at like 2 am, and then at 1 am. Then sending me your essays and your applications when I needed them even though I didn't get into any of them. You stayed patient with me even though I bothered you really late about helping my friend with math. Then giving me advice about college. You're awesome dude and you're gonna do so well in college.

The second person I want to thank is my best friend. You helped me do my homework without anything complains when I was stressing and stayed by my side even though I know I'm really negative. You let me rant to you sometimes be mean to you just so I can be happy and honestly I can't ask for anyone better to share this friendship with for the past 5 years. The last person I want to thank is my Desdemona (inside joke). He literally helped me edit an essay for THREE HOURS and then helped me with math questions. You are going to do so great in the future with your kind heart and college. I honestly think you shouldn't hang out around me because my personality is not the best. These people has made it possible for me to survive this year. I honestly cannot wait until next year where all my hard work will pay off. Now time for yoga class, until next time stay cool ma beans!!

OLO ma beans... Pretty late last night, I realized that I have missed the one year anniversary of my blog... It was on March 20th. So whooohooo it has been one year and I've already accumulated so many of you!! Can't believe it's has already been one year. I'm probably going to have a really late celebration during summer.

Now I'm on my way to apply for college. You are about to embark on one of the mos exciting but torturous experience a student can go through. The past 16 years of my life is defined during the next 5 months. And yes, I have a late birthday, so when I am in college I am still 17 so that means for the first two months if I find a boyfriend older than me then it's illegal... and I won't be able to drink until I graduate college... I still remember strolling with my grandfather in China talking about moving out when I'm 18. Everything I've worked for is defined by one or more pieces of paper. Since I'm starting another subsection in my life, I want start another series that will go on every time I make a discovery about the college applying process or passed another level on the college applying process. I want to help all of those who are going to apply for college in the future and show everyone how I survived one of the most competitive high schools in the nation. Until next time, stay cool ma beans!!

I don't think I can be happier. Being a published artist has always been a hidden goal of mine. I say hidden because I never thought it is going to be possible. And today that somehow managed to happen. I am now an officially published artist. The statement "When one door closes another door opens." is true after all. After being rejected from two school teams, I thought I was the problem. Somehow, being passionate in everything I do doesn't get me anywhere. But I'm wrong, I have worked 14 years to where I am now. Now at the age of 16, my artwork has been published. I would not have traded this for any of those academic team acceptances.

Life doesn't give you free stuff... It just doesn't. But I'm a bit better than life so I am giving you guys double posts this week since I'm going log off for AP testing season. Basically see you all in June. Just kidding more like the last week of May... That's not much better... So AP testing season is coming so I'm studying for AP tests along with my other school work. Since I decided to be a tryhard this year, I have three AP tests to study for. And also my math grade is a C right now and if I want to go to my first choice college, I am going to need to get that to a B. Which is kind of scary since there are only around 5 tests left. My mind shrivels up just thinking about it. I really hope ma bean army can wait until I return in June for Project Inspiration Part II and this year I have a great line up for this blog. Follow me on Twitter for hints as time counts down. I have really appreciated everyone for following me around in my crazy life this school year. The last thing I can do for everyone before the end of my Junior year is to end with double posts everyday and some inspirational stuff here and there. If ma beans miss me too much, shoot me a email or follow me on Twitter and Instagram to be kept up on my daily life. I have so much planned for the summer and Senior year. I am so grateful for each and one of you. Until next time, stay cool ma beans. 

Don't miss me too much ma beans

Alrighty, MY GPA JUST DROPPED TO A 2.5 average. Am I in a state of panic?? Heck yes. Am I going to do something about it?? Heck yes!! I already emailed my teacher so hopefully, I'm praying that I will be okay... I swear because of high school I might become religious.

This was a video project where I have to post my video on YouTube and then share the link with her before 3:00 pm. SO THANK THE GPA GODS THAT THERE IS A SUCH THING CALLED A TIME STAMP. Literally if I did not have that time stamp, I would be sobbing because I would not have proof and basically I'm going to fail the class. I might be a bit dramatic since there are only three grades in there but dudes... The Asian logic is that even one grade matters in the whole picture. I will continue to update this post as the day goes by to see whether she is willing to give me points for the video or not.

YES THE NEXT TOPIC IS SADIES. For those of y'all in other countries, basically sadies is a dance where the girl asks the guy to the dance. So am I gonna ask someone? VERY VERYYYY slim chance. Like slimmer than Sehun's arms. You see, the guys that I like are either all in Korea (some might be on tours in other countries), across the country, too far away to drive here, or dating someone. Speaking of dating, I wanted to check out the guys at my first choice college... You know for potential dates and I did find this super cute guy, he's athletic and smart. TOTALLY MY TYPE... But then, I decided to scroll to past 77 weeks ago and then I liked that picture. Well, I'm now scarred for life... I'm paying the price for stalking... This is seriously a public service announcement because be really careful when stalking people on any form of social media. Until next time, stay cool ma beans. PS... Can y'all just casually pray for my grade right now?? Thanks... 

Your laptop have just been blessed...

OLO ma beans!!! I've been getting some comments and emails addressing the fact that I'm not posting much.... And that I need to rant more!!! My explanation for why I haven't been posting will be on a separate post probably up tomorrow....

She won't even CONSIDER writing rec letters for me because I am "average". You know what else pisses me off?? The fact that she is constantly praising the top two students of the class and ignoring other students. Honestly we need more praise than them because that is all they get. Speaking of AP classes, I share my APES class with Seniors and apparently my teacher thought that it would be hilarious if I was sitting with a table FULL of Seniors. This is second semester... Literally as long as they pass the class they will be happy, while me on the other hand. I still have ONE FULL YEAR OF WORRYING in front of me. I want to go to a good college not a semi good college. Do these teachers understand that?? Juniors should sit with Juniors and Seniors with Seniors. If there are successful business people out there please remember me because I might work as the Janitor in your company in the future. Remember to give me promotions. I wanted to target the one percent people in this post but I think they deserve a second one. Until next time stay cool ma beans. 

Here is a calming GIF to keep you going

I don't feel like writing a WTF Wednesday because nothing is more WTF worthy than my attitude towards life. Here is the thing, I've had three test today and I believe I failed all three of them. You don't understand, I just raised my AP Environmental Science grade to a 91% and now because of this midterm (WHICH BY THE WAY IS NOT EVEN IN THE MIDDLE OF THE SEMESTER) could possibly drop to what I call the "death zone"... 88-89%.

You know why it's the "death zone"?? It's because it is super hard for you to raise it up and super easy to drop this percentage to a point where you can no longer raise it. I have a 88% in AP English and I raised my grade from a 88% in APES into 91%. DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH EFFORT THIS TOOK?? I think school should grade everyone based on the amount of effort they put into studying. For example, I suck at every single subject possible but I put in the work, so I should get an A. It. Is. Literally. That. Simple. Why am I getting a B+ when someone who does not even try gets A+s.

Excuse me for being pissy. I don't want to complain about my Honors U.S. History class but I think I have to. In that class, yes I do have a 97% BUT today on the test. I got 3/30 correct for the fill in the blank part. She wanted us. To. Know. The "popular" cities in EACH STATE!! HOW DO I KNOW WHICH CITIES YOU CONSIDER POPULAR?? I CANNOT READ YOUR MIND!! It's not like only I failed but the rest of the class did too. In addition (wow look at me using fancy transition words), she didn't even tell us about knowing all the rivers and monuments AND YET SHE TESTED IT!! Excuse me while I go stab myself multiple times with a blunt fork. I want to improve but I think I don't put in enough effort. Why do I not put in the effort when I could? Because with all honesty, I don't care. With my grades and SAT scores right this second, I could get into UCSD guaranteed so why should I try? "I should try just because" is no longer a good enough reason for me to try in school. People go to school to learn, I go to school because I have to. Until next time, stay cool ma beans. 

Here is something funny...

I really like Luhan lately... He's like a little Bambi Deer hooman that is crossed with a fairy... That was the weirdest thing I've said this whole day... #repsectmyobsession

First three days of Junior year and it has already been the most hectic three days of my life. I did not have any time to post, so I'm not even going to try to schedule them and lie to myself that I posted those on that day. I sleep around 6-7 hours everyday, relying on my stored up energy and my horribly messed up circadian rhythm. So far, two of my classes have involved nothing but bonding activities, and the others are just filled with work and more work. I went through a extreme depression last night, where I was having suicidal thoughts and I just felt like I've lost all my purpose because I couldn't possibly get a 4.00 GPA this semester... BUT FEAR NOT!! BECAUSE I GOT ABOUT 3 TUTORS AND 2 FOR AP ENGLISH AND 1 FOR SATS!! SO YAYAYAYYAY!! Not really. Again... This is just a warning at all of the posts that will be coming your way because I haven't spoke to you guys in a while. Until next time, stay cool ma beans. 

I've always had this feeling while I am driving back at night and sees the lights of city from below or when it's raining outside. Since it's pretty gloomy outside, I want to share with you guys something that I've never told anyone before, because I was afraid that they won't be able to understand, but I hope that what I'm saying is relatable to you.

On rainy days, I enjoy staying at home with a book and reading for the whole day or go outside to a coffee shop and just sit until my mom picks me up. I can hear the rain dropping and I'm feeling super warm and fuzzy... It's the best feeling in the world.

I would feel that at any second, my friends would call me and we would talk about everything and anything in the world and just have a blast at home. When I'm outside in my super cute outfit, it's another feeling of perfection, that feeling that only the things I do matter, and the rest of the world just melts away with whatever I'm drinking. The air smells super clean, and it's just one of those things that cleans your mind and your soul.

I watched like ten YouTube videos about "getting ready" for the day, but never once could I related to the video since no one freaking have time to put on make up after PE class nor do I have any of the clothing that the YouTuber has, so let's see how I get ready.
Q: Do you wear make up?
A: Okay, so I sleep at like 1:30 am every day, so when I look really tired and my eyes looks like cats squinting... I would wear white eyeliner at the corner of my eyes and blend it out to make me look more awake. I learned this trick from this online this Facebook post.

Ever since the first steps into kindergarten, popularity ruled the school. Your social status is pre-determined by the people around you, those who speaks louder, and dress nicer than you. Today, ladies and gentlemen, lets discuss about something that everyone can relate to, popularity. Let me begin this with a story. In my grade, this girl is actually from my English class, around the second week into this school year, she left to another country to compete in a distant singing competition. Let us call her, R. Before I go on, let me give you some background on this girl. She won the sixth grade talent show at our school, and she is well known in high school for her singing, but of course, like any other popular girl with a talent, she did not join chorus all because she surpassed them all. She was in marching band though, and sometimes posted videos of her on Facebook. Moving on to her personality, I've had her in my seventh grade math class, she was nice, but I never got to really know her, so I can't say anything to judge her... Until now... When she left, the whole school, especially her best friends began to follow this singing competition, as the rounds went on, and more and more people were eliminated, she made it to top six. Her voice was absolutely amazing, but it wasn't good enough. She was eliminated. And so, last Friday, she flew back to our school, missing one full year of her Sophomore year and with a new arrogant attitude that she is above everyone. When she lost, she reactivated her Facebook, and followed some people that she unfollowed. We can refer to her as popular. The school was buzzing with her arrival, someone even told me about how hot she looks now. When the thing was, no one noticed her before she became "famous" in other words popular. View the rest of this story on my website: ahamilton1018.wix.com/wtfidk

Welcome to Artistic Saturday where I share my most recent piece of artwork. This one is titled: Our Ocean Our Trash. It's almost the summer, so I was thinking about the beach and everything, and of course there is a story to go with this. As I began this art work a few weeks ago, it was not only to enter another competition, but it was rather out of anger. In my high school, it is completely filled with clubs of all sizes and shapes, the most famous ones being of course: Key Club and Interact who charges about $1,000 for a membership. Of course exaggerating. Like why am I paying for volunteer hours? Well anyways, I am a part of this super cute animal club. You must think that all we do is promote animal welfare and all that... Well, we do much, much, much less than that. Instead of disapproving animal testing, we are supporting cancer research, which is basically animal testing. Don't get me wrong, I am also a part of the helping to cure cancer club in my school, but this is not what this club is suppose to be supporting. Anyways, since I was an active member last year in this animal club, I had the greatest chance to become an officer of the club. I became the only Sophmore officer in that club. Instead of having one president, we have two co-presidents who one is too busy to care about this little club and another who only cares about her senior boyfriend. That leaves the officers with a silent secretary, a wannabe track girl, and these two girls who became officers because we didnt have anyone running for those positions. This club went from an 8/10 t0 a -1/10...Check out the rest of the story on my website!