HH & Her Beans

OLO MA BEANS!! Guess why yo girl is hyped... She just finished all of her college applications and so she has a few experiences to share with all of you youngsters out there. I am pretty proud of how I did not procrastinate and happy with the application process, so let's get started...

OLO ma beans!! If you all follow me on Instagram, you would have seen that I was at homecoming... Yes hunties... I finally went. Honestly, it wasn´t as bad as I expected it...

OLO ma beans!! So I took some time off today to visit one of my favorite places on Earth... Just to treat myself after AP tests and math tests. I am just treating myself too much these days... Yesterday was good food and today is good art. My world's most important two things: food and art. I actually went to the Getty in hopes of seeing their new cave painting exhibit but then there weren't any tickets so I'm planning on revisiting sometime during the summer.

The cutest thing happened while I was there... Since the view was so terrific, I decided to do a quick sketch of the building... I was drawing there were two couples sitting in front of me. And half way through my sketch while I was drawing out the leaves to the three trees on the left, one of the couples proposed!! I literally just captured their engagement with tree leaves. This has just made my day. They were so happy and it was just so nice. It wasn't a big gesture and they were just having a picnic. It's just so cute... Kinda make me feel single but during the moment I was too focused on their proposal to have these selfish thoughts but now that I'm writing this... I feel kinda selfish... Some tips though, for those who are planning on visiting the Getty any time soon. First, DO NOT VISIT during a holiday of some sort. I know it's a great spot to hang out during the holidays but it really isn't. There are a ton of tourists and people just like you who thought museum visiting is a good idea.

SECONNNDDD, make sure you have this thing called "patience"... Normally if you go to the Getty on a regular weekend, the museum is basically empty and there are barely any people there but during the holidays, the entrance is crammmmmeeddd with traffic so be prepared to wait for around thirty minutes before even getting into the parking structure. Lastly, bring a jacket, it gets pretty cold there in the middle of the afternoon... I hope all of ma beans, gets to visit this museum some time in the future. Until next time, stay cool ma beans!!

OLO ma beans!! I'm sorry this post went up so late, I didn't get home until like an hour ago... But some important stuff happened today: I don't think life gets better than this. I honestly don't think it does. Literally someone Internet slap me please because I just had the best day ever. FIRST OF ALL I HAD A FULL 8 HOURS OF SLEEP!!!! When was the last time that happened?? Maybe like one year ago.

After getting up, it was around lunch time and I had a lunch date with one of the best, THE BEST people ever. Legit she's like my mentor/idol/sister and she's also on the admission team at University of California Berkeley. Do I kinda want to go to that school?? Yeaa.... Do I kinda love the fact that she's a family friend??? OBVIOUSLY!! I have met with admission officers from different colleges before but they're all strangers so what's really awesome about this situation is the fact that I can say anything I want and she understands where I'm coming from. She graduated from the same high school as me, went to Berkeley, and now works there. Like uhhhh can I have your life please?? It's so great having someone who can give me pointers and lists that tells me what I should do next to better my chances at getting into the colleges that I want. You know the other reason why she's really, realllllyyyy awesome?? She buys me food.

I offered to pay, but ma beans... She always gets me. She told me if I want to pay her back, I have to get a job and do that. Ooof the pressure is on. I don't think last year I brought you guys with me for this holiday, but I headed over to my aunt's house for her BBQ party with a bunch of strangers... BUT SO I THOUGHT!! Apparently the doctor that I met knew me a long time ago. And by a long time ago I mean literally when I was going through my embarrassing phases, he was there to witness it all. Yup, that was fun. I managed to embarass myself in front of someone even before meeting them. My life is so sad. Well I guess this day isn't actually that great... Another interesting I met there was a dude who worked at WallStreet. This is one of the most interesting backstories I have heard so far. Apparently, he married a woman from this super exotic country in Asia (I forgot where) and after bringing her back to the U.S. she cheated on him, left him her child and ran off somewhere. He is now basically living off all of the money he earned from Wall Street to raise his kid. That dude is living the life... I want a life where I just live off of the millions of dollars I made... Now how do I get there without doing anything?? HMMMM that's the challenge. Until next time, stay cool ma beans. 

Life doesn't give you free stuff... It just doesn't. But I'm a bit better than life so I am giving you guys double posts this week since I'm going log off for AP testing season. Basically see you all in June. Just kidding more like the last week of May... That's not much better... So AP testing season is coming so I'm studying for AP tests along with my other school work. Since I decided to be a tryhard this year, I have three AP tests to study for. And also my math grade is a C right now and if I want to go to my first choice college, I am going to need to get that to a B. Which is kind of scary since there are only around 5 tests left. My mind shrivels up just thinking about it. I really hope ma bean army can wait until I return in June for Project Inspiration Part II and this year I have a great line up for this blog. Follow me on Twitter for hints as time counts down. I have really appreciated everyone for following me around in my crazy life this school year. The last thing I can do for everyone before the end of my Junior year is to end with double posts everyday and some inspirational stuff here and there. If ma beans miss me too much, shoot me a email or follow me on Twitter and Instagram to be kept up on my daily life. I have so much planned for the summer and Senior year. I am so grateful for each and one of you. Until next time, stay cool ma beans. 

Don't miss me too much ma beans

BEFORE THIS: I DO NOT WANT TO SEE ANY INAPPROPRIATE PICTURES AND IF YOU SEND THEM I WILL BLOCK YOU!! Spring is the time for cleaning and change, so I've decided that I wanted to be more open about who I am. I am planning on changing this blog under the username of: hly1h4 which is my current Instagram and Snapchat username... FOLLOW ME AND ADD ME!!

Something has been trending around recently: self love. This is the idea that you're body is "perfect" and you are "perfect just the way you are." And if you are not happy with yourself, then people shun you for criticizing yourself. WHOA. When did this happen? Apparently if we are unsatisfied with how we look then we are aiming to be stick skinny. Apparently if we are not always "positive" then that's not okay. This is not "self love."

I believe in the concept of "self acceptance" it is working until you are satisfied with yourself. If you are chubby and you want to get down to a healthier weight. THEN THAT'S FINE!! You do not have to stick with the body that YOU ARE NOT SATISFIED WITH!! You are not happy with your body then no one else should be able to tell you other wise.

I am still working on the whole self acceptance thing... First is accepting my intelligence. How I won't be able to get the same grade as others and how I won't be able to get some scholarships because people who are more skilled than me received it instead. I do get jealous like any normal human being of other teenagers who are a whole lot younger and more successful than I will ever be. For example, one of my classmates developed these special hearing aids and right now all of the Ivy League schools wants to accept me. I realize that I am not EVEN close to doing something that amazing. Another girl developed an alarm for girls who are sexually abused. UHHH... I'm sorry that I didn't save the world today.

Second is the acceptance of my body. I'm working on that still... Trying to lose weight down to the point where I am healthy and happy. Lastly I'm trying to accept myself as a whole. I am passionate about art. I have a passion about writing. I LOVE wearing sweatpants and T-shirts and not look like a model when I'm wearing them. I adore exploring new places with my friends. I get anxiety when I am put in a social situation with people I don't know. My life is honestly not the best right now and I am definitely not the smartest and people need to be truthful about that. It just so happens that whenever I tell someone, "I really hate AP English." They will either say, "But you are soooooooo smart!!" or "I think your grades are good!!" It's okay to tell me, "Hey maybe you can work on improving yourself." That's not mean at all... that's the truth. Screw those people who are giving you bad feedback about "just believe in yourself." That's not going to get you anywhere, continue to improve yourself until you can reach self acceptance. Wherever that point is, it takes time and yea that truly sucks. Until next time, stay cool ma beans!!

OLO ma beans!!! I've been getting some comments and emails addressing the fact that I'm not posting much.... And that I need to rant more!!! My explanation for why I haven't been posting will be on a separate post probably up tomorrow....

She won't even CONSIDER writing rec letters for me because I am "average". You know what else pisses me off?? The fact that she is constantly praising the top two students of the class and ignoring other students. Honestly we need more praise than them because that is all they get. Speaking of AP classes, I share my APES class with Seniors and apparently my teacher thought that it would be hilarious if I was sitting with a table FULL of Seniors. This is second semester... Literally as long as they pass the class they will be happy, while me on the other hand. I still have ONE FULL YEAR OF WORRYING in front of me. I want to go to a good college not a semi good college. Do these teachers understand that?? Juniors should sit with Juniors and Seniors with Seniors. If there are successful business people out there please remember me because I might work as the Janitor in your company in the future. Remember to give me promotions. I wanted to target the one percent people in this post but I think they deserve a second one. Until next time stay cool ma beans. 

Here is a calming GIF to keep you going

Sometimes I just like to sit in the dark and think about a lot of things. I feel like my fingers can't catch up to the pace that my brain is going so I take the time to sort things out. 

As I promised, here is week 2 of Project Inspiration. Today I will inspire you with one of the closest person in my life, my best friend, S. She is the most caring and nicest person that I've ever met. She has been dealing with my craziness for 4 years now, and I am very glad that I have someone like her around me to keep me normal. So let's meet my best friend. 
Q: To begin the interview, can you tell me a little about yourself? Ha... But you know seriously... And your experiences as a dancer?
A: I started traditional ballet when I was 4 but then I moved to a place with super white people so the ballet places there wasn't that professional and I lost everything. Then I moved again and I got better because they were all Asians who pushed us hard and I got better. Yay! I quit ballet a few months ago and now dedicating myself towards a more hiphop style of dance.
Q: You've been a cheerleader for 2 years, how is it?
A: It's been quite a journey and has it's ups and downs. There's been happy times and really bad times where the team was just so annoyed (most of the times at a teacher or teammate *ahem*) but it's been exciting. Life is never boring!
Q: Tell us the reality to the cheerleading industry. Wow... That sounds very professional... Are the girls really "mean girls" as portrayed in movies?
A; Of course it's pretty much the same because stereotypical white girls exist, but of course the high schools a bit different from stereotypical high schools so it's not as exaggerated. Just think mean girls but more realistic.
Q: Yay for random questions!!! So what's your favorite candy?
A: ANYTHING SWEET AND SOUR!!! I think...
Q: Wow.... that level of unsureness... LOL
Q: Moving on... Do you suggest no experience dancers to join cheerleading?
A: YES OFCOURSE. as long as you are determined and try your best you can get better than those who have had years of experience. Very inspirational yes and it's actually very true I've heard an actual story.
Q: Does cheer really require skills or does it depend on how hard you try?
A: Both but if you try hard you'll get those skills
Q: Are there any WTF stories that you've had experience with?
A: OMG I HAVE A BUNCH actually this one just happened very recently. We are working hard and drilling the assembly that we are putting for the entire school next week so any of the practices right now are crucial for us. VERY CRUCIAL. All of us have known that there's early morning practices on certain dates but this one girl OMG yes just this one decided not to show up. I kind of expected it but still I was trying to be nice to her and everything so I texted her "hey are you coming?" and she replied 5 min later "OMG I totally forgot we had practice today!!!" HAHAHAHAHAH WE WERE ALL LIKE WTF THIS IS IMPOSSIBLE. So I told her she should try to come ASAP because we need the practice and we had to learn all new choreo the day before and that needed to be perfected ASAP for the white crazy lady adviser to watch. She said she will try to come and that she's sorry blah blah blah BUT OFCOURSE SHE JUST NEVER CAME! We never understood why. She said her house is far or whatever but she had 1hr 30 min to get her arse to school and her house is only about 20 minutes away. My fellow teammate/friend supported us with that fact. The worst thing is she became all rude and stuff to my friend when my friend has been telling her the schedule and helping her with everything and supporting her when the rest of us was mad at her but she just doesn't appreciate it at all. Let's just say she's shameless and doesn't care about her lies. Oh yeah... she's famous for all the lies she tells. 
A: Of course, we all know about "her". 
Q: Do you any advice for my viewers?? About high school or anything really.
A: DONT LIE ABOUT ANYTHING BE HONEST PLEASE *Note WTF story above life lessons peoples.*
Q: OMG LOL "lessons peoples". 
Q: How long do you spend in rehearsal for cheer everyday?
A: It really depends. if there's nothing serious in the upcoming week or so we just chill and do nothing but we usually practice about 2 hrs everyday.
Q: are you looking forward to junior year?
A; NOO and yes more no than yes. No because it's going to be torture and one step closer to applying for college and stepping out to the real world which is very scary and kind of yes because I'm so over high school and mostly the meanest math teacher I have ever encountered in my whole life. she ruined me.
Q: Don't worry... Me too... And literally everyone who graduated before us.
Ma beans, I hope that her advice and experience has inspired you to maybe tryout for a sport or your school's dance team some time in your future because YOU CAN DO IT!!! Until next time, stay cool ma beans and you've gots its.

Dear the guys that USED to like,

Hey you, the curly haired boy that I liked in second grade. I was too shy to talk to you, so I just silently watched you like a creep. See, I didn't even learn your name. You will forever be known as my first crush.

Hey you blue eyed cousins that sanwiched me in third grade. B, you were the best right hand seat partner ever because you stayed in during recess to help me with my spelling homework while I impressed you with my math skills. R, I seriously didn't know that B and you are cousins and you are the best left hand seat partner ever because when you saw me at the park, you hide and seek with me.

What's up C, the guy who had a crush on my best friend. You basically became the heart throb in fourth grade and everyone flounced near you, even guys. You were basically the perfect bundle back then. You were good at sports, had a nice face, and super smart. When I moved, I still managed to remember you. But do you know what a jerk you are? I messaged you being the naive me in seventh grade asking you if you happened to remember me when you moved to the same school as me. I didn't do that because I still liked you, I did that because I wanted someone that knows my past. Instead of replying, "I don't remember." You didn't say anything.

Hey there, the guy that looked into my eyes in fifth grade. I know that you liked me, even though I pretended that I didn't know. One of your friends actually told me. You are super funny and I remembered that you drew me everyone that lived in your house once in math class. Remember when you tried to impress me? You told me that you could drive your uncle's truck. Most of all, I want to thank you for being a part of my story that got someone else in trouble.

Oh lord, hey cheating buddy of sixth grade. I guess this nick name is a inside joke. I never really figured out how or why I liked you for that time period of a week. Now that I think back, it is because we have a lot in common. You told me many things that you wouldn't tell your friends, and we were close, but not that close. The distance is what made the relationship work. I'm glad that we still are friends. 

Hey seventh grade cutie. A new bad boy arrived in school and that's you. I guess I didn't like you for your personality, it was because you wore a clean pressed light blue shirt on the first day of school. I was hoping that I would sit next to you in class but you were one seat away. I like you style and I still do, but I've heard some nasty rumors about you. We never had a chance.

XOXO, 
Alexiz

I actually discussed about this topic in English during my Freshman year while we were on Romeo and Juliet. I loved this topic because I don't believe in "love at first sight". Yea I would love a fairy tale ending where this super perf guy sees me and then two seconds later, he wants to marry me, but I bet you there would be problems after that. I think that when one sees someone else, the first thing they notice is their physical appearance. You can't really be like "OHHHHH I love his personality from just looking at his gorgeous face!!"

It doesn't work that way. If you say that he was "love at first sight" you are basing everything on his physical appearance. You know nothing about his personality and whether he will treat you right. Okay I've seen someone and been like, “WOWOWOOWOWWOW he's very attractive" then went up and talked to that guy, but I've never been like, "WOWOWOOWOWWOW I love this guy" right after I see him. Some first sight believers might be like, "IT'S FATE!!"

You will understand this only if you are a true Kpop fan....

Okay girl... You can think of it that way... But when you don't have the courage to go up to this guy to talk to him and miss him... YOU JUST LOST YOUR FATED GUY!!! So like the guys that you date later... Guess what sistar... HE'S NOT THE ONE FOR YOU BECAUSE YOU MISSED YOUR CHANCE!!!! This is another reason that I don't believe in love at first sight because no one knows how many "love at first sight" you are going to have. Take Romeo and Juliet for example, they had one experience of love at first sight... LOOK AT HOW THAT TURNED OUT!!! Anyways... Does it count if every time I see an attractive guy I should be like, "LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT??" Like how does the whole "love at first sight" works. Please comment down below and follow me on this bloogggggg. Tell me what you think. Until next time, stay cool ma beans!!