HH & Her Beans

OLO ma beans!! I should have made a post last week since that was actually the first week that I've started my diet but I was too busy relaxing to write this... also I was lazy.

After the last weight challenge I stopped on my diet basically and I actually did not gain the weight back which is awesome. I am currently at 132 and the last time I checked in I was at 130 which is not great but ehhhh... At least I didn't gain that much, I was expecting to gain all 10 pounds back. OKAY I GET IT!! BUT I need a break okay?? Gosh ma beans... I got a membership at LA Fitness and I gotta say, it's pretty accepting right now. By accepting I mean like I do not feel out of place while I'm there or feel the pressure to work out. I saw this commercial for a competitor gym and they were talking about how intimidating the other gyms are... I was kind of nervous when I started but turn out... Everyone is too busy caring about what they are doing to pay attention to you. I divide my work out into three parts on the days where I run. I start with a warm up of speed walking for four minutes then I run the rest of the mile. The second chunk of time, I walk a mile. Then finally, I would run again for the last mile. And then cool down. On days where I have yoga, I just go there at 9 and stretch my boday until 10. Occasionally I still do Blogilates because sometimes I miss the closing time of the gym. The best thing about going there to run... Is the cute guys... I mean yea sure I lose weight and become happier but ma beans... Cute guys.

Yes oh yes...

Check out my post about that... Until next time stay cool ma beans.

OLO ma beans... Alrighty... I think I've been reading too much East of Eden + Scarlet Letter with everyone having dark secrets and stuff... I think it's time to talk about my embarrassing past with you guys.

So I gathered all of the cringe worthy moments.... The most vivid story that I remember was in 6th grade. My middle school is from 6-8th grade, and there was this one guy. Who was like the Zac Efron of my middle school named C, he was in the school's rock band, everyone loved him, he was super nice, and was just like a Kdrama guy who came alive. I thought he was super attractive and he had my English teacher for his English class, so on the last day of school.

I wanted him to sign my yearbook. AND IT JUST SO HAPPENS THAT HE WAS IN MY TEACHER'S ROOM WHEN I THERE... Yes... I mustered up all of my fetus courage and I went and asked him to sign my yearbook. I like remember how this went down so clearly. So the Sharpay of the school was right next to him, she had amazing proportions, super pretty, and yea bad personality... BUT SHE WAS PRETTY!! She actually just graduated last year, going to NYU. She's pretty perfect. ANYWAYS... C was loungin like he was sitting/leaning (like he was sitting on the table but his legs were supporting his weight... you know what I mean??)... The pretty girl was standing next to him but she was talking to the teacher, so I was like THIS IS MA CHANCE...

and just telling you guys... THIS GUY HAS NEVER SEEN ME IN SCHOOL... LIKE EVER.... I'VE NEVER SPOKEN TO HIM.... I asked him, "WoULd YoU SIgN mY yEArBoOk?" Just like that... yes with my last inch of breath. I couldn't even look at him without blushing. WHY AM I SO AWKWARD?? Anyways, he was supeeerrr sweet and didn't say anything.... BUT THEN... THE PRETTY GIRL (guys I actually know her name) turned around and said, "AWWWW HOWWW CCUTTEEEE" You see?? I have the worst luck ever. He was so professional though and he asked me, "What's your name?" I swear, if he becomes famous one day for how beautiful he is, I still got his autograph. He wrote: "Hey *insert my name here*! Have a wonderful *insert middle school name here* experience. Cherish the moments forever.

These will be some of the best days of your life. Sincerely *Insert his beautiful signature with a music note ending his name*. He was only in 8th grade and yet he was already this amazing of a person. I CANNOT... WHY AM I SO AWKWARD.

The next awkward story involves the same day but a different guy. So this guy I've liked him for 5 years, he was a replica of Ju Ji-Hoon, yup he was the first guy I've ever had a crush on. I GOT FRIENDZONED WITH THIS GUY SOOOO HARD... LIKE IT WAS RIDICULOUS.... My face is turning red just thinking about it. We were super close, he was the second chair of orchestra and he got all the ladies with his violin skills. He was super popular. His popularity was a little less than C. He graduated this year also and he got into Yale.

This is the only guy that I don't regret liking. Anyways, while he was in his drama class, I went in to ask him to sign my yearbook, by that time, we haven't spoke for about 1 month?? Which to me was a whole life time.... I was sixth grade, so like don't say anything. He wrote: "Hi *insert my name* :D I'll miss you. A lot. I'll be nice to you in *insert my high school name here*. Haha. See you, bye :] *Insert his name*. Did he keep this promise? Of course he did, I messaged him about classes and he gave me advice. Congrats on making it to Yale, they're lucky to have you. I guess this story wasn't that awkward but my friends were there and they made a huge deal about it. WAIT JK... OKAY I DO HAVE A EMBARRASSING STORY ABOUT THIS GUY... Once during lunch, my "ex-friends" knew that I liked him and literally pushed me towards him while we were walking past his table during lunch, he looked at me super awkwardly as he waved hello. WHY??? WHYYYYY???? URGGGHHHH CRRINNGEEEEE.... Have you guys ever had these moments?? I think I'll share some more cringe worthy moments next time because I need to take a moment to go cringe in a corner. 

With all honesty, when I first got to 626.... I wasn't super excited, my friend told me how the food was expensive, there was EXTREMELY long lines, and the whole market was basically people. You know how normally, people will be like, "BUT SHE WAS WRONG!" NOPETY NOPE NOPE!!! SHE WAS RIGHT THIS TIME!!!! It wasn't a bad experience because I did have fun, but if I was to go there just for the food and gifts, I would have been completely disappointed. This market was a one time thing, #neveragain. So let's do a break down, I knew that I wasn't going to be full just from the snacks and food that they had there so I bought a burger beforehand which filled me almost all the way. 626 opens at 4 and continues all the way until 1 AM and since LA is raining Fire everyday, I decided to meet my friend there at around 7:00 (according to Siri is when the sun will set). When I got there, the cars were already lined up, and inching slowly into the massive race track parking lot. Upon arriving at the entrance for CARS, the road was divided into 2, the closer parking space was $5 and if you park further away, it's free. My mom dropped me off in the free parking space, and I met up with F. The whole time though I was kind of worried about my skin because the night before, my skin started acting all crazy with pimples and stuff, so I finally fixed it with some BB cream, and I felt really awkward, but anyways. We paid the $3 entrance fee which I found ridiculous since I'm going in to pay more money for food. When I first entered their wasn't a lot of people and everything was over priced. A teddy bear was $25 which was expected since F was hungry, we went straight to the food area. First thing I bought was this J shaped ice cream cone that I saw in a Kdrama and wanted to try it ever since. If it was just the ice cream, go to McDonalds, it's the same ice cream. Making past probably like 200 people, we finally bought some swirly potatoes which I always wanted to try. F suggested that we go and get the mason jars with tea, but since you guys don't know this, I get realllllyyyy bad headaches from drinking boba and some times milk tea, plus I only slept around 5 hours last night which didn't help at all. We bought the tea and I realized how many people there were. I was there from 7:00-9:30 and more and more people started coming in. I felt super uncomfortable in lines because EVERYONE were super close and right next to each other. The mason jar was a complete waste of money in my opinion, why did you buy it you ask?? Well, it's like paying $7 for a memory. The memory of the first and last time I will go to someplace like 626. We couldn't even make it close to the stinky tofu booth because we didn't have the time to wait in the long line that wraps around the booth. Making it back to the gift shop area was even more difficult than coming into the area. Speaking of difficulty, some of the booth had "coming soon" underneath the food that they offer. UHHHHH excuse me?? "Coming soon"?? How soon?? There was art and music, even though I didn't enjoy the genre of music played. We were hoping not to run into anyone from school, but of course, that didn't happen. It was awkward but we got through it. Moving on from all of the negatives of this market, I wanna give a shoutout to the guy in the white shirt who saved us a spot while F went to go buy chicken!!! You literally made my life so much easier!!! Also to that cute guy in the blue pants and white shirt that I saw 3 times tonight, call me maybe!!!! To the guy that F bought chicken from, you have a very attractive face.... My legs hurts terribly right now and I threw up after eating the food, so.... Thanks 626 and see you never!!! If you guys are going to go, I'd like to hear your experience. Until next time, stay cool ma beans!! 

I know, I know, this song is super old like end of 2014 old but I have to write about this. I couldn't stop watching the MV for the whole day today because the song is just so catchy. First AKMU has SuHyun in it and when she collaborated with Lee Hi.... OH MY CHEESE BALLS!!! Perfect combination. Not only that but Bobby is in it??

UhHHhHHHHhHHHHHh... How can you not like the MV when you see this??








Or this.... UHHHH yes pleasssseeeeeeeeeee....

After watching a few AKMU videos I noticed that most of them did not have a happy ending for the main girl. Like in this one, both SuHyun and Lee Hi's characters were rejected by the main guys they were after. I really enjoyed the catchy tune of the song especially their voices. Let me explain this. So SuHyun has one of those sweet but powerful voices that can reach the high notes while Lee Hi has the sexual cute voice that is contrasting SuHyun's voice. AND THEIR RAP IN BETWEEN THE SONG!!! OH MY ANGEL FOOD CAKE!!! It kicks the song to a whole other level. I give this song a ten stars out of ten stars so GO CHECK OUT THIS TEN STAR SONG BECAUSE IT IS VERY RARE FOR ME TO GIVE A TEN!!!! Okay I'm done screaming... Until next time, stay cool ma beans!!!

Dear the guys that USED to like,

Hey you, the curly haired boy that I liked in second grade. I was too shy to talk to you, so I just silently watched you like a creep. See, I didn't even learn your name. You will forever be known as my first crush.

Hey you blue eyed cousins that sanwiched me in third grade. B, you were the best right hand seat partner ever because you stayed in during recess to help me with my spelling homework while I impressed you with my math skills. R, I seriously didn't know that B and you are cousins and you are the best left hand seat partner ever because when you saw me at the park, you hide and seek with me.

What's up C, the guy who had a crush on my best friend. You basically became the heart throb in fourth grade and everyone flounced near you, even guys. You were basically the perfect bundle back then. You were good at sports, had a nice face, and super smart. When I moved, I still managed to remember you. But do you know what a jerk you are? I messaged you being the naive me in seventh grade asking you if you happened to remember me when you moved to the same school as me. I didn't do that because I still liked you, I did that because I wanted someone that knows my past. Instead of replying, "I don't remember." You didn't say anything.

Hey there, the guy that looked into my eyes in fifth grade. I know that you liked me, even though I pretended that I didn't know. One of your friends actually told me. You are super funny and I remembered that you drew me everyone that lived in your house once in math class. Remember when you tried to impress me? You told me that you could drive your uncle's truck. Most of all, I want to thank you for being a part of my story that got someone else in trouble.

Oh lord, hey cheating buddy of sixth grade. I guess this nick name is a inside joke. I never really figured out how or why I liked you for that time period of a week. Now that I think back, it is because we have a lot in common. You told me many things that you wouldn't tell your friends, and we were close, but not that close. The distance is what made the relationship work. I'm glad that we still are friends. 

Hey seventh grade cutie. A new bad boy arrived in school and that's you. I guess I didn't like you for your personality, it was because you wore a clean pressed light blue shirt on the first day of school. I was hoping that I would sit next to you in class but you were one seat away. I like you style and I still do, but I've heard some nasty rumors about you. We never had a chance.

XOXO, 
Alexiz

I actually discussed about this topic in English during my Freshman year while we were on Romeo and Juliet. I loved this topic because I don't believe in "love at first sight". Yea I would love a fairy tale ending where this super perf guy sees me and then two seconds later, he wants to marry me, but I bet you there would be problems after that. I think that when one sees someone else, the first thing they notice is their physical appearance. You can't really be like "OHHHHH I love his personality from just looking at his gorgeous face!!"

It doesn't work that way. If you say that he was "love at first sight" you are basing everything on his physical appearance. You know nothing about his personality and whether he will treat you right. Okay I've seen someone and been like, “WOWOWOOWOWWOW he's very attractive" then went up and talked to that guy, but I've never been like, "WOWOWOOWOWWOW I love this guy" right after I see him. Some first sight believers might be like, "IT'S FATE!!"

You will understand this only if you are a true Kpop fan....

Okay girl... You can think of it that way... But when you don't have the courage to go up to this guy to talk to him and miss him... YOU JUST LOST YOUR FATED GUY!!! So like the guys that you date later... Guess what sistar... HE'S NOT THE ONE FOR YOU BECAUSE YOU MISSED YOUR CHANCE!!!! This is another reason that I don't believe in love at first sight because no one knows how many "love at first sight" you are going to have. Take Romeo and Juliet for example, they had one experience of love at first sight... LOOK AT HOW THAT TURNED OUT!!! Anyways... Does it count if every time I see an attractive guy I should be like, "LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT??" Like how does the whole "love at first sight" works. Please comment down below and follow me on this bloogggggg. Tell me what you think. Until next time, stay cool ma beans!!

OLO ma beans! Okay I'm pretty sure that you guys were expecting this so I need to talk about it. I have been a huge fan of UNIQ even before they made a comeback with EOEO (which by the way, is so awesooomeeeeee). They manage to make Korean style rapping and music into something that is not trying to hard to be like American rap. I also love how their stylist does not try hard to make their group look UNIQ... OMFG I AM SO FUNNY... OkAY... So anyways, they look great when I saw them on the MBC Music Core. Their song EOEO is on replay as I write this... I need to point out something though, all ¨Korean¨ bands are incorporating Chinese members in it. I personally think that this might cause more problems in the future (cough cough... EXO comes into mind). I really have nothing against it, since it is more beautiful guys to stare at, but I couldn't help but think about their future. I really enjoy the music of this band, and not necessarily the people that are in it... I'M SORRY!! But I dont like any of them, like their faces are just really stereotypical... If you really look at them, their faces are the same shape... and their eyes are the same... Their appearance is another cookie cutter appearance. Out of a ten star scale, I think they are a 6 because I love their music so much but they are lacking in the physical appearance area.

My first story occurred in eighth grade. When I came into sixth grade, I've always wanted to be in the theater production every year, so I worked for three years and in eighth grade, I finally made it in. On the first day of class, I questioned Mrs. Q's decision of letting certain people into this class. One of those people was T. This guy volunteered to be my husband in the play, at first I thought he was completely gross and stuff. But then rehearsal started, and we became really good friends. I guess, I started having a crush on him when he started telling me about his personal life during rehearsals. Once he looked really stressed so I asked him what was going on, and he replied, "I want to save seats for my girlfriend and my parents but they don't know that I am dating someone." When he said that, I knew that I lost another guy that I liked. My world didnt come crashing down, it just felt like I lost a best friend. But then, things started to turn around, during opening night, we were playing slide and talking backstage and my friend held up a hand heart and I was like he has a girlfriend, but he shook my head and he said, "I broke up with her." That one sentence made my night, it just means that I have chance. On the last night of the show, we had an after party, and I think that's when we became a "thing". There was a couch where we can watch the play, and he put his arms around me, and yea... Then later that week in history, while I was getting paper, he cornered me and he said that cutest thing ever, he said, "I missed you during the weekend, can I have a hug?" After these things, nothing really happened because the semester ended. We still occasionally talk but everything was just awkward. The second story is about another J, there was a lock down last year at my school and it was like the second week of school. Being stuck in Biology, he was in my class. This guy caught my attention last year being the guy who demonstrated push ups in my PE class. He is one of the most perfect guys that I've met, he is super nice, he is a math genius, and he is super fit (like physical appearance is like <3<3<3) We became super close friends. During the lock down, we played would you rather so I learned a bunch of things about him, he also took me in for all my weirdness and continued hanging out with me even though he could be hanging out with his friends. Everything was going fine, until someone pushed a chair on his hand, and skinned the back of his hand. I saw every emotion that this guy can express in four hours. The last story involves a millionaire and his gifts. Check out the last story on my website: ahamilton1018.wix.com/wtfidk