HH & Her Beans

I just want to sit down a chat with everyone for a few moments. No series, just me and all of you. I posted a few days ago that I will be signing off for AP season to study but as days goes by, I realized how screwed I am even if I study.

I literally failed (meaning I did not pass) two tests this week. One is a midterm which is basically a practice AP exam and the other was a history test that I studied for 15 minutes on the car. Yes I know, I know I should have studied longer, so let me tell you what I was doing the night before. I finished my HAND WRITTEN notes for class and the rest of homework (1 assignment but I'm a slow worker). I also slept 5 hours because we got out of school early but in my defense, I slept 3 hours the night before studying for my midterm. My "power naps" became "afternoon bedtimes".

At this point, I am out of energy to try anymore. My grades are slipping out of my hands faster than water and I'm losing control of everything. Don't even get me started on my math grade. There are only around 5-7 grades left to put in, and I'm only passing. If I don't get my GPA up, I can say goodbye to my first choice colleges. I know some of my readers are from other countries and your academic life is probably worse than mine yet I'm still struggling. What makes the situation even worse is that my super nerd friends (they are the most genius, genuine, amazing students that's why I call them super nerds because they have magic powers to get good grades and be in so many extracirriculars all at the same time) all got into a team for next year. I tried out for both and didn't make any.

Yay for how much I suck at life. This whole team thing is either you are really good at what you do or you're popular enough to use connections to get in. Well, I have neither. I learned to take rejection calmly but this is too much. I don't know why I'm always so bitter and negative but sorry if I depressed you. Until next time, stay cool ma beans. 

We have not had one of these for a verrryyy long time, but BOOYYY DO I HAVE A RANT FOORRR YOUUUUU!! This is about SAT testing... So if you think this topic is boring please feel free to find the WTF Wednesday tag or explore my blog... LET'S CONTINUE WITH THIS!! Collegeboard is a "non-profit organization that connects students to college success and opportunities".

And by "non-profit" they mean: a charge for SAT testing, ACT testing, SAT II, review materials, score reports, AND score choice. AND by "college success and opportunities" they mean: you must take these tests or else you will not get into college and even if you get a high score you might not be guaranteed acceptance in the college you want to get into. I literally cannot stress how many of the "college search" emails I get every single day. On average in a week I literally get around 15-20 emails. BUT YOU CAN UNSUBSCIRBE!! I still want these opportunities... Maybe I might just go to Indiana University or University of Alaska. You know what else bothers me... THE FACT THAT THEY SEND OUT TEST SCORES DAYS BEFORE BIG HOLIDAYS!! I AM NOT EVEN TRYING TO FOOL YO!!

Me hitting my SAT scores... Or my prep books... Whatever floats your goat...

The November SAT scores came out days before Thanksgiving DAY and the December SAT score CAME OUT TODAAAYYYYYYYYY!! What is today... Like two days before Christmas?? Do you Collegeboard people seriously want to ruin our lives like this?? Because of the score that was released today, my mother made me delete all forms of social media from my phone. THANK YOU SATAN!! I literally cannot... Do you want to know what my desk looks like??

SAT got me all worked up...

I have TWO SAT prep books on my desk at the moment and it is one in the morning here. Someone please tell College board that WE ARE ON VACATION!!! You know... Sometimes when I get angry enough... I start looking through the authors of who wrote the textbooks and wonder if their parents never got married then I would not be learning that thing right now... So who invented Collegeboard?? Which teacher decided, "HEY you know what's a great idea?? Not only charge kids for a national test they have to take but also ruin their lives by constantly changing the format of the test!!" THANK YOUUUU SAAAATTTANNNNNNNNN!! I am so done at this point with my life. I wonder how many people gave up at this point... Clap your hands if you don't care!! I hope we all survive this period of our lives. AMENNNNN. Until next time, stay cool ma beans!!

Don't get too worked up... I got angry so I looked up Channie gifs... OOPS... #ShouldBeStudying